I watched a CES fireside by Elder Bednar this morning. I know his message is true. The title of the talk is
"That We Might Not...Shrink" from D&C 19:18. He talks about how we come to earth to gain experience and become like Christ. Often people find it is easier to have faith in Christ's ability to perform miracles in our lives, but do we also have the faith to trust in His will when it seems that miracles are not part of His plan for us. He said we must learn to drink the bitter cup without becoming bitter. I've been thinking about this same idea a lot lately as I've pondered the trials I've experienced in my life and have struggled with how to help the many sisters in our ward who are currently struggling with trials in their lives.
We all are given opportunities to demonstrate our faith in various situations. We are all given opportunities to grow and develop our faith and talents and abilities. We are all given opportunities to serve and love and bear testimony. I would like to take this opportunity to express my testimony of, love for and faith in our Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. I am so grateful for their plan of happiness and their willingness to give us this earthly experience and trust us to use the atonement in our lives.
I am grateful for the faith I developed as a young woman by following the personal progress program that prepared me for the aftermath of a car accident which left me with amnesia at 17 years old. I am grateful for the knowledge that experience gave me of the reality of our Savior, His atonement and the eternal nature of our existence which further strengthened my faith and prepared me for coping with the death of my father just 3 years later. I am grateful for the tender mercies of the Lord which I experienced after my father died. They assured me of our Father in Heaven's love and awareness of each of us which further prepared me for the experience of sending my husband to Iraq for a year when our daughter was only 7 months old. I am grateful for the strength and support I received from experiences where I could feel the companionship and comfort of the Holy Ghost when my home teachers served me, at general conference, during my personal prayers and scripture study. I learned to turn to the Lord for peace and assurance which prepared me for the experience of having micro-preemies in the NICU for months. I am so grateful for the patience and endurance I developed at that time which enables me to continue to press forward with faith as a mother and wife and more importantly as a daughter of God come what may.
There is another talk that has influenced my thinking in this area,
"Timing" by Elder Oaks. I have been amazed at how perfectly both the trials and blessings in my life have been tailored to my individual needs. I could never have mapped out a better plan for my life. I am so grateful for the Lord and His perfect plan for me. Of course I haven't always been the most grateful child. I have definitely had my tantrums and stubborn periods, but the Lord patiently waited for me to calm down and turn back to Him.
I only share these things as way of illustrating my faith. I can share my testimony, but without a bit of background it might come across as naive or brain-washed-sheep-like regurgitation. My point is that I know the Savior loves us and is there for us, because I have experienced loneliness, sorrow and pain. I KNOW HE IS THERE BECAUSE HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE WHEN I SOUGHT HIM. I pray that my testimony will strengthen yours and that you too can find the Savior standing near, watching over you. And I pray that the Holy Ghost will help you to recognize Satan's lies if he tries to tell you that your situation is different or insignificant or whatever he says to try to convince you that your experience doesn't fit the Lord's plan and that He won't be there for you. I testify that He is there for you, right now! He always has been there and always will be there, no matter what! So take the time to feel His love for you and recognize His hand in your life! Pray for help to see Him and become like Him; you will be able to, I promise! In His Holy name, Jesus Christ, Amen.